Just need some advice

[Odinist_Wondering]

So I have been reading a lot on Odinism. Yet I feel my need isn't satisfied like I haven't read something I need to read or something. I also still have some beliefs of the "Christian" faith. Like I am torn between the two. Although the pull to Odinism is stronger than what it was. It's like a part of me doesn't want to let go of some of my "christian" beliefs. It as if I internally feel wrong for believing this. Don't know if anyone else has had this experience when first starting to learn about Odinism. I feel like Odinism clicks with me and I feel at "home" with it. Weird or not?

[Somerled]

So I have been reading a lot on Odinism. Yet I feel my need isn't satisfied like I haven't read something I need to read or something. I also still have some beliefs of the "Christian" faith. Like I am torn between the two. Although the pull to Odinism is stronger than what it was. It's like a part of me doesn't want to let go of some of my "christian" beliefs. It as if I internally feel wrong for believing this. Don't know if anyone else has had this experience when first starting to learn about Odinism. I feel like Odinism clicks with me and I feel at "home" with it. Weird or not?

I don't think it's weird if you have lived your life as a Christian. It's hard to let go of something you've believed your whole life or been programmed to think. I can't say I am in the same boat because I wasn't raised a Christian so it's hard to relate.

It's hard to give you advice without knowing your situation. Like what are the x-tian beliefs you still have, etc. I mean, whats missing? Whats the conflict? All I can say is you need to look within yourself and be honest with yourself. Any forced belief cannot stand up on it's own.

[Odinist_Wondering]

This religion was not forced upon me. I feel Christianity was forced upon me. Yet I have a hard time getting pass the Jesus thing. I still believe he died for my sins ... and yada yada yada...Maybe it's just spiritually I am missing something.

[Somerled]

This religion was not forced upon me. I feel Christianity was forced upon me. Yet I have a hard time getting pass the Jesus thing. I still believe he died for my sins ... and yada yada yada...Maybe it's just spiritually I am missing something.

I didn't mean that Odinism was forced on you. Sorry if that's how it sounded.

Sounds like something you'll need to sort out yourself. I could talk about the fallacy of x-tianity all day, but I don't think that'll help. To me x-tianity has the effect of reducing spirituality, because it seperates us from the divine and from nature. I can't tell you that Jebus didn't die for your sins, whether I think he did or not. Again, something you need to look inside yourself for, in my opinion.

[Katia]

At least two decades of being in fear and feeling guilt over the death of some man doesn't just go away overnight.. It will take some time.. :)

[mrsdragon]

I don't know how old you are, but for me it wasn't "easy" either until I realized that I can't change 50 plus years of thinking overnight. For the first 50 plus years of my life I had this belief in Jesus/Christianity. In the beginning of my "transition" I even told Mr. Dragon that I wasn't sure I could just walk away from those old beliefs.

Just keep educating yourself and using what you learn in your every day life, whether it be reading here, talking to others, studying elsewhere, but give yourself time.

[Outdoorsman]

Yes, give yourself time. Keep reading, learning, living Odinism, and don't be too hard on yourself. Let things work out.

[Odinist_Wondering]

I don't know that I am "transitioning." It's hard to explain as I don't know any Odinist in my area to ask questions to and at times I feel stupid for the questions I do ask. As if I should know it anyway. Just gets frustrating that I am not were I feel I should be at.

[mrsdragon]

NO question is a dumb question.. believe me, I've asked my hubby some real zingers!!!

There are no Odinists (that I know of) anywhere NEAR where I live. I've talked online to some folks in Detroit Area - 2 hours away from me. Thats why sites like this are good learning tools. Talk, ask, listen, learn..... you'll get it!